Mesa

I'm grateful for Mesa. Sure, it can be dodgey... But I'm grateful to live in Mesa and all the great friends and memories made here. Im grateful for the brown house and the 2nd avenue hoose!!! Grateful to be neighbors with the Lords Mesa Temple-

Grateful for An awesome roomie and other roomates that don't shoot me.

I'm grateful for the land of the sun. Some may call it a forsaken land... But it's been full of blessings to me. Grateful for you Aly. Many of my memories here are with you.

Flashbacks

Sometimes my mind flashes back to the trail and brings with it different emotions. I remember some details so well and others are foggy. I am afraid of some aspects of the trail and when I think of even getting close to an edge I cringe. I'm grateful we were together on very challenging weeks. Some flashbacks are scary and others are sacred. I'm certain you can relate. Today I'm grateful for when you took my hand because I kept looking back so I could see you. You walked up, took my hand and led me the rest of the way to Adam and the fire. Another sacred flashback for me was when we were the only ones awake and by the fire. We didn't say much at all. You warmed hot rocks and cooked me mac daddy. I haven't tasted anything so good. We just sat by each other. Didn't say a word. These flashbacks hold a lot of meaning to me. They make the other flashbacks not as scary. I'm grateful Aly,  for the peace you gave me even when you were having a battle of your own. A battle that was difficult that was hard for others to see but so real and so scary. Like the name I gifted you, you bring warmth and comfort just like firelight when all around you is dark. 

I'll never forget When Seth gave me a blessing telling me that Angels were there. I have no doubt that you were one of them. I never would have left that creek if you wouldn't have been there. Not willingly anyway. So today I'm grateful for those flashbacks that are sacred. Grateful those memories are with you. You will always be the trailwalker I admire and trust. I'm grateful for those sacred times that weren't easy.... That only you, me, and God understands. 

Health / party animals

Today I'm grateful for my health. I'm also grateful for last night when we had a party here at the apt. It felt good to be surrounded by people. Some we knew well and others not so well. I'm grateful that life allows us to be with others and to learn from them. I am grateful that when I am feeling down or low there can be someone who lifts me up just because of who they are and because they chose to be there.

Mercy

Tonight I'm grateful for Mercy. Google gives the following definition for mercy compassion or forgiveness shown toward someone whom it is within one's power to punish or harm.   In my mind that is what love truly is! I've been at home with my family for the Holidays. At times they have granted me mercy and vice versa. I'm grateful that Jesus Christ makes mercy possible. It is truly beautiful when love wins and peace is granted. Really the greatest feelings I've felt in my whole life have come when mercy was extended to me. im grateful for people who extend mercy and who teach me how truly Great God is. God really does love us because He sent His son so that all that believe in Him can be saved! Sounds like a wonderful merciful plan that will continue to bring a fun feeling that I don't deserve but brings me relief and joy. "God be thanked for the matchless Gift of His Divine Son."

Laughter

Im grateful for laughter. I've allowed my mind to get really weighed down lately, but realized this weekend how powerful laughter is. It really is so important to goof off now and again and to recognize the joy in the often overlooked moments.

Okay okay... I have more to say!

Also... I just must say THANK YOU. You have been so very patient with me during this whole process of not feeling good ect ect. You have been patient with me in general. What I am most thankful for is how you treat me. Even if I do try your patience at times, you never make me feel like a burden. Thank you for helping me feel valued and appreciated. Its not easy for me to feel that way and I feel like it must be work for you sometimes in order for me to feel that... and I do! THANK YOU for all you do to help me feel awesome, even when I may not deserve it!!!!

AND I HAVE SPOKEN

The Fall

Today I finished up an email to send to Nate Mitchell about when I fell off that silly mountain.
I just want you to know Aly that as I wrote this email I just kept thinking over and over again how grateful I was that YOU were there. I know you were in so much pain that week. It is one of those weeks that only we will ever understand. But I hold it close to my heart. And I hope you know I recognize atleast in part how much you gave that week when it was hard! I LOVE YOU SIS! THANK YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE! I am blessed to have you for my friend.
(I think this will post under your name because I am using your computer... hehe) OH DWELL...

ONCE AGAIN... I AM GRATEFUL FOR YOU!!!!


Kel